Wednesday, January 27, 2010 1/27/2010 11:36:00 PM

begone (:

Monday, January 18, 2010 1/18/2010 04:05:00 PM

Bye JBP (:

Thursday, January 14, 2010 1/14/2010 09:50:00 AM

lousy week

♥it's been such a lousy week for me so far.
i am going to rant and rant as much as i can to frustrate all the incoming pressure.
no matter how much i try to flunk my resume and report, i still got thru.
and sad to say, im leaving for china for 5 months soon.
most likely leaving on 6th or 8th march 10.
bagus.

such a stressful week.
have so many assignments and submission.
and PM paper is before CNY, while MAD, ECAD, OOAD2 is after.
Srsly, such a special CNY this yr, overlapping with Val's day.
But not a special one for me. cause i've got no mood for cny at all.

i still have my OOAD's RDD to complete by next wed because of the stupid presentation.
i still have my Ecad that has yet to complete.
i still have the stupid pm tutorial that keeps coming and coming.
i still have the stupid I&E presentation slides to complete on friday with my team when my team are not so proactive afterall.
what else do i still have?

i've got so many things to do yet so little time.
i feel so terrible now.

Monday, January 4, 2010 1/04/2010 11:03:00 PM

just for you

♥



This song is super meaningful.
The lyric is damn nice too.

And i love it. so touching and made me feel so emotional.

1/04/2010 10:52:00 PM

i just dunno why

♥sch just started today.
and morning is super duper f up.
i waited for bus 154 for like going an hour.
srsly, wth.
wanna eat snake oso should have limits one mahh.

both "off service" buses came and the bus drivers got kb by the passengers.
i hope this kind of nonsense dont happen again tmr.
bad bad management, srsly for SBS.
.
.
.

sometimes, i just can't understand why.
when i am working during my sundays, and i realised most of my youth events are on sundays, i felt so gulity about not attending either one of them.

and because it is so,
i tried to adjust my work schedule to work every sat instead so that i can at least not be forgotten by my youth.
and look what has happened again.
my youth cohesion event is on this coming sat.
AND I CAN'T ATTEND AGAIN!

seriously wth.
it's not like i nv do anything to amend it, i did and it's still not enough.
i dunno how alrdy. hais.
.
.
.
up till now, im still indecisive about internship of in-house.
i should just go bang my wall.

so sian. =.=

Sunday, January 3, 2010 1/03/2010 12:30:00 AM

i need to recharge

♥i've been quite in a laze lately.
so good to have ended a year of torture and unfortunate events.
i hope for the best this year. hopefully everything will be as smooth as the toufu. (:

my parents went to overseas to celebrate my grandpa's birthday.
I've nv keep track of how old my grandpa is, however i do know he is roughly 80/90 plus years old? quite old right? I hope he had a wonderful bday celebration and hope he will live a long long life!!!

I wasn't looking forward to year 2010 and celebrating my last day of year 2009.
Instead, i laze at home with love and watch the countdown tv show. I did my own "zi-HIGH' movement. xD

school is reopening soon on MONDAY!
sian, have to work hard for the next part of sem 4.
RAHS.

indulge with virtual villager 3 PC game.
omg, i think i will lose my sleep time to this game.

HAHAHA.

Sunday, December 27, 2009 12/27/2009 11:35:00 PM

im not sure about myself

♥Thanks to kenny, im crazily into abracadabra by the brown eyes girls. (:
Seems that im starting to pick up the dance steps due to the repetitive replay of the youtube video!

I am feeling so emo out of the sudden. Don't feel like working tmr because of the long working hours. Not that i can't take hardship, it's just that i only have 2 weeks holidays to rest before the study battle starts again. Can somebody help to cover my shift tmr? I don't think anyone's listening. So just forget it, jingfen!

I've been rather inactive in my youth lately, or has it been this case all the while? Due to my personal commitments and part-time job, i was unable to go for events or plan out my events nicely and in an orderly manner. I just need a breather sometimes, and the more i take the chance to breathe, the more i need to. That is why my work has owas been hanging halfway there. I guess if i continue this way, i will be out-casted by my clique in the youth soon? Maybe i just can't have both the worlds in my hands. Just sometimes, when i see the photos taken during the event, i will feel so envy.

I've becoming lazier and lazier each day, and only the love spurs me on and let me carry on with my life as per normal. Im so dead to rely on love so much. I need to change.

Thanks laogong for the super sweet present.
Thanks yz for the christmas present.

4 more days to end of year 2009...

Saturday, December 26, 2009 12/26/2009 10:32:00 PM

discover sth new

♥I've discover sth new about myself.
Some new changes which i didnt take notice of.

After being attached, I realised i am beginning to dislike going to crowded places ssuch as orchard roads. I would rather go over to Jurong Point to hang out or just simply stay at home with my darling and have some home-made dinner with him.

Am i getting on my age or what? I don't know.

Normally during x`mas eve, i would always go orchard and count down. But this time round, I went to bed as normal like it wasn't x`mas. HAHAA.

Well, maybe i changed and becoming more and more introvert? I don't know.

ANyways, thank you all for wishing me and calling me WHEN I WAS ABOUT TO SLP. (:

Thanks, i really appreciate it.

MERRY MERRY CHRISTMAS PPL! ENJOY YOUR WARMEST DINNER GATHERING AND FESTIVE SEASON.

P.S Woohoo, it's 5 more days to the end of YEAR 2009.

Tuesday, December 22, 2009 12/22/2009 12:24:00 AM

drained totally.

♥after being trapped like a sandwich having to make stupid decisions, i decide to just send in my resume first. my mom asked me if i send my resume and say if can go just go. but i know what my heart wants. it wants to stay it singapore. let's just see how later.

i've been feeling quite exhausted for past few days. selling bird food and still have to bear the bird's consistent "love bites" on my fingers, ears and neck. they were very naughty but adorable. i love them. srsly if i were to quit one day, i might just miss those birds alot?

working tmr and the day after, due to the lack of ppl again, THANKS to the dinosaur fair that will be going on for the next 2 months plus plus. i am so dead and they will be even dead if i quit now.

okay ah, im going to bed.

cya all.

Friday, December 18, 2009 12/18/2009 12:13:00 PM

confused state

♥it's been a long week since i've blog.

today is the last paper i am having. i should be feeling happy.
however, im being binded by some major decisions in my life.

to china for internship, or stay in sg for in-house?
since i know i've gotten a place in bemobile project, i've decided to stay in sg.
but recently, the internship lecturer called me and inform me to send him a resume for the china internship.

then i heard if i don't intend to go, then it's better not to send in my resume.
because if i send in, and suay suay the company picks me, den it's hard for me to reject.

i sent a msg to the lecturer today, and then he asked me to call him to talk about this matter.
then he said i stand a better chance because my BIS got grade AD.
And furthermore, i am a MBS student though there is another girl who is in IT who stands a higher chance too.

hearing those, not very good news to me.
because of this, i've been thinking whether i should go ahead anot.
there are way too many things that are holding me back.

maybe i am just afraid, afraid that i will need to sacrifice something for this trip.
what should i do?

i srsly don't know.